That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” – 2 Corinthians 12:10
Weak but strong.
After many years of daydreaming and hard work, countless cups of coffee, three camps, and endless prayers, I finally began my journey in year-round camping ministry as a Program Director, with the most applicable theme in the entire world: Weak but strong. We are weak, but God is strong. We mess up, we sin, we struggle, but God can turn those weaknesses into strength and use us anyways. I fell in love with the theme right from the start, but I never imagined how much God would teach me through it in my first summer as a Program Director.
Y’all, camping ministry is hard. It is so incredibly beautiful and my favourite thing on the entire planet, but it is HARD. For three to four months, you give everything of yourself to the kids that are coming onto property, trying to give them the best week of their summer while also teaching and showing them God’s love. It’s 24/6, all consuming, exhausting, amazing, exhausting, fun, exhausting, unpredictable, exhausting, demanding, and exhausting. Did I mention that it’s exhausting?
This summer revealed to me time and time again the ways that I am weak, the ways that I am not adequate on my own to do this amazing, challenging job. I got sick, I forgot things, I struggled to believe in myself, and I didn’t always stay as close to God as I should have. But it was when I was there, in those lows and at my most weak, that God was best able to reveal his grace and strength through me. No matter how much I forgot or how much I struggled, the summer went on. The kids still had a great time, and programming happened. No matter how sick and exhausted I was, I found that God gave me the strength I needed to go on and do the job in front of me- and even have fun along the way. Whenever I was struggling to believe I was worthy of the job He has given me to do, a staff member or friend would come along with the exact encouragement I needed, or a camper would be there to tell me how much they love camp. No matter how far away I strayed from God, he always found a way to draw me right back in, whether it be through a conversation with a friend, a song during staff worship, or hearing campers pray during Light Service at the end of the week.
Despite how hard this summer felt, God gave me no room to doubt that this is exactly where He needs me to be. I love my job so much, and I love camp SO MUCH. I am so grateful for the community that He has placed me in, and the home He has helped me to make in Canada. I have so much growing to do in my job, and in my faith. He has moved so much in my heart in this one summer- I can’t wait to see what he will do with many years more.
I am grateful for the lessons that He taught me this summer- to accept help, and to accept love. To not believe in myself, but believe in His ability to work through me no matter what state I’m in. To delight in my weaknesses, and look for the ways that he is making me strong through them. To trust in His faithfulness and love. Most of all, He taught me to know that even if His plan doesn’t make sense to me, not only will the destination be beautiful, but so will the journey in between… even if it is hard.
Throughout the summer, God kept bringing me back to the song King of my Heart. “You are good. You’re never going to let me down.” Indeed.